Sooo I’m doing my Human Biology homework and it is so dull and there is so much to write! I’m shattered but its in for tomorrow so I have to keep going! Argh!
I’m procrastinating online oops while also doing my work, I’ve nearly finished it now though. I haven’t been up to much since I last updated. When did I last update? *looks* oh Wednesday, not much has happened.
As usual I am not sleeping til 2-3am and it leaves me shattered for college as I only get about 3-4 hours of sleep not including night time awakenings because of my asthma. Unfortunately I keep having microsleeps during lessons in particular during Sociology lessons.
I have quite a productive cough at the moment but I don’t think its a chest infection its just irritating as its making me wheezy and short of breath, but nebs are helping so its all good. 🙂
I have an appointment with my consultant on Thursday (01/10/09) I’m really really not looking forward to it again, I always feel nervous before seeing my consultant because I worry about he will say. I especially don’t like going when I’m particularly symptomatic like I am at the moment as I’m not sure what he will say. And I hate doing Spirometry as it is exhausting and I feel a bit rough asthma-wise afterwards.
I have realised lately that I have been quite naive about some people in my life, I still regard them as friends but some of them have not been truthful with me. Or else I feel like I am used and taken advantage of because they think I’m an easy target. This is a bit upsetting as I feel I try hard to maintain my friendships, but it often feels with some people however much you try they will never realise what their actions etc are doing to you. I sometimes wonder why I bother with some of these friends as they will never know how much they mean to me because they don’t see it. Maybe its time to just focus on what I need to do in other areas of my life instead of trying to be there for these people who neither appreciate it or stab me in the back. I say this but I’m not brave/mean/harsh enough to cut these people out, when they want someone to talk to, someone to listen, I’ll still be there to do exactly that..